I have three typical responses right now when people ask me how work is going.
- I’m treading water and my nose is out of the water.
- I have more irons in the fire than normal. I regularly run to the fire to see which iron is getting too hot, pull it out (work on that problem for a bit) and then replace it and pull out the next iron to let it cool down.
- I’m not burning the candle on both ends…I’m a puddle of wax trying to be functional with no end in sight.
The last one has gotten the most laughs, especially from my coworkers who are in the trenches with me. Even amidst the laughter, it’s genuinely how I’m feeling. I’m exhausted.
My conversation with the Lord has been asking for His wisdom in prioritizing tasks, asking Him for rest, and asking that He meet me in all of this chaos. I don’t want to be overwhelmed and miss Him. I’ve felt His presence and comfort throughout the last two months, but He clearly spoke through Psalm 69 the other night.
Save me, O God! For the waters have come up to my neck. I sink in the mire, where there is no foothold; I have come into deep waters, and the flood sweeps over me. I am weary with my crying out; my throat is parched. My eyes grow dim with waiting on my God.Psalm 69:1-3
I laughed out loud as I read this. It is as if David is sharing my very thoughts and heart cry!
But as for me, my prayer is to you, O Lord. At an acceptable time, O God, in the abundance of your steadfast love answer me in your saving faithfulness. Deliver me from sinking in the mire; let me be delivered from my enemies and from the deep waters. Let not the flood sweep over me, or the deep swallow me up, or the pit close it’s mouth over me. Answer me, Oh Lord, for your steadfast love is good; according to your abundant mercy, turn to me.Psalm 69:13-16
The Lord is reminding me of several things.
- I am to seek after Him
- His timing is perfect
- He is steadfast, loving, and faithful
- He is good and merciful
I will praise the name of God with a song; I will magnify him with thanksgiving. This will please the Lord…you who seek the Lord, let your hearts revive…let heaven and earth praise him, the seas and everything that moves in them.Psalm 69:30-34
May my thoughts, actions, and words bring praise to Him regardless of my circumstances. He is big. He is loving. He will sustain me.